8/17/26
TruePowr is where I come to share my experience, science based research, and hope for recovery from chronic health conditions. 
The last five years of deconstructing of my life after realizing I was part of a controlling religion are still some of the hardest moments I have to face. It's been three years since ending my 30 year relationship and I'm barely unpacking all of the ques, learned behaviors and trauma I experienced and caused as part of that relationship.
I know it seems like there's a lot of talk out there and I'm glad there is on these topics. It means we're not hiding. It's embarrassing to expose weakness. It's mortifying to realize you thought you were providing comfort and stability for your children, when you were really feeding narcissistic behavior. 
This process it isn't about blame or self-loathing. It's about taking responsibility, apologizing to your children and changing patterns of behavior, conversation, and connection.
Something as simple and reassuring your children they don't need to feel obligated to you to perform any action what soever, is revolutionary. This fundamental principle was the foundation of my religious upbringing, how I was raised as a bit of 
"puritanical New Englander" if I may be so bold to call myself, and what I thought God required of faithful women.


As a society we have come so very far in understanding the effects of trauma on our thinking, our health, our quality of life, and how we see the world.